an existential crisis

When I get sad, I get really sad. It's not fun. Often that brings about an existential crisis of sorts. What is the point? We're all going to die in the end. Do we just get through these seventy-odd years, waiting for the end? Are we supposed to make a change on the Earth? Are we supposed to grow up and have a family - is that the point? Are we merely supposed to learn everything we can? Don't get me wrong - I'm not dismissing that there is a point. I'm just wondering what it is.

Thankfully I live near the sea. It's only about a half hour drive (without traffic) and I'm so grateful for it. I don't think I could ever live any further from the sea than this. I'd feel like I was trapped. For me, the ocean is the path to freedom. It's the way to the rest of the world. It's the opposite of being trapped in the middle of land. Earlier tonight I went to the beach and revalidated my belief in life. It was really that simple.

I don't know why we're here but looking at the ocean tonight, I didn't care. It doesn't matter why we're here but I think it's pretty amazing that we are on this beautiful Earth. So why don't we just enjoy it while we can? I really need to remind myself of this. I'm desperate for an anchor tattoo. To hell with regrets. If I'm going to be alive, I'm going to do it thoroughly.

Currently reading: Middlesex by Jeffery Eugenides
Currently watching: Suits
Currently listening to: The Postal Service

Poem © E. E Cummings / Photography &copy asleepykat


  1. Scenery like that is the reason I drool pretty much every time I watch Home and Away, so so beautiful! (I know you don't like H&A, so sorry that I keep bringing it up, haha) It's great that you have a place like this, I wish I had one because I've been having a pretty severe crisis of my own. Maybe I can get through it by looking at these beautiful photos :)

  2. Well this isn't too far from Palm beach so I'm not surprised that you recognise it! :) And I may not like the show, but where it's filmed is pretty damn beautiful. And keep talking about it :) I like it :) hahaha.

    I hope you find something like this to get through your crisis! <3

    Also hi :)

  3. these photos make me miss living by the beach! lovely post <3

  4. I'd love to live right by the beach. :)

  5. Ermygosh! Those photos are amazing!!!!
    Yes, don't lose hope. The future holds amazing things for you! <3

  6. Congrats, you made me smile. :) Thanks ❤ ❀

  7. This entry makes me really happy. I wish I lived closer to the sea! Sigh.

  8. This entry makes me really happy, too. :) I'd looooove to someday live by the beach. <3